3.11.55

I just want to become something real !

Struggles still staying with my life  especially my study ! 
The truth hit me, then stabbed me, 
then killed me a thousand times !! 
I wonder how my life going on : ( 
I feel like it's to late .. .
to apologize for everything that I've ever done wrong, 
to change who I've become, or back to what I was .
I've probably giving up and I don't care .
too many tears have already been shed !
Yes I know the past can't change .
my friends, my lecturers and my parent said it's never to late
but then why does time exist ? 
The things I've seen will scar me for life, 
I don't want to become something larger than life,
I just want to become something real ! 
before I make a decision I always think twice,
Can life be better I wish that it could ! : ( 

I ♥ MuSic