What Should I Do???

I having final-exam soon , yes my life getting mess again 

I ask myself all the time and the question is 

''What should I do with my life with me going through all these situations?" 

Does it make me a weaker or stronger person? 

Which life shall I follow?
What path should I take?
Should I go left or right?
And make the same mistakes.
Like I've done in the past.
Or should I move far away and start over again?

The Lifestyle? The People? and even about the Money?
For me it all has to change.
So what do I do.
Because I've made big mistakes.
It's either this way or that way.
What more can I say?
I guess what ever comes down to it...

Why It Hurts!!? :( 

I don't understand why there's pressure inside, 
but the pain that comes from it brings a tear to my eye, 
I haven't talked or seen your in a long time, 
so why do I still feel pain inside, ?
is it a heart attack or is my heart trying to put its self back, 
from the years of miss-use broken in pieces quarters and half's, 
when I finally have the courage to look at your page, 
I see you've grown 
by now I know you've forgotten all about me, 
I don't blame you I would to, 

Why Me?!

so many lies

I never said that, I never did
why would I say that when the same word was said about me?
why would I hurt you? how could I?
you never asked me what happened you didn't even try to see
I had my story you have yours 

you would all pass by and I wished and I hoped
a second chance would show you,
but then I got mad and finally fought back,
my words hurt you and my actions did too,
I wanted to be a mean bully and do it just
for you !
Don't make fun of me 
Don't judge how I am 

Do you forget you every seen it?
Do you start a new rumor?
Or do you question me about it?
As they love to gossip, so you chose to start a rumor. 

I don’t want attention, I don’t deserve it
I play along with the world, but my candle is not lit
Am I lost? That’s easy to say
Is there hope? We’ll see with each coming day !!